Panic attacks and online forms

[danceswithgary]

Damn it. I finally feel well enough to write something, and then I spend the day filling out the online forms for Social Security Disability. I've been having panic attacks at the thought of going through all the torture - stupid 'feeling of doom', can't take a deep breath, head between the knees panic attacks whenever I opened the damn web page. Absolutely ridiculous reaction from someone who worked for the state worker's compensation board thirty years ago.

Then again, it's probably because I know what fresh hell they put people through when they make a claim. At least I wasn't one of the people wielding pitchforks, I was the one facilitating claims against insurance companies, invoking penalties on late payments, and expediting cases to be heard.

But it's done. I'm exhausted, but the forms are filled out and submitted and now I wait...and wait...and wait some more. Then I'll get my rejection notice and I'll have to start all over again with an appeal.

wahoo

What I really dread is the thought of getting a phone call from them while Gary's gone on his thirty-five day trip and not being able to answer their questions and being forced to go out in public and encounter germs. Hello, Social Security person - woman in virtual bubble here! Did you read how many times I've gotten sick in the last three years alone?

I seriously need to get out of whining mode here.

Hold on! Just switch an 'h' for an 'r' and that first 'n' for a 't' and...writing mode!

There that's much better.

*dusts off hands in satisfaction and opens A Stop in Willoughby*

Comments

[twinsarein.livejournal.com]

The good part of this is that you're feeling better. So, yay you! You don't want to get out of whining mode too quickly if you're writing slash, because whining mode = endowing him, and surely that will help with your story. *g*

[danceswithgary]

Oh, I definitely tap into my personal angst at times, just like a method actor. :-D

[goth-clark.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[danceswithgary]

*hugs back*

Someday I'm going to get to the SPN fics you and Miss Roxy are writing, then I'll really be in trouble with another fandom to obsess over. :-D

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* I'm sorry that you have the possibility of so much awfulness in this.

Can you possibly do the phone aspects online? My father wasn't filing for disability but when he filed for social security they wanted him to do everything online. He refused since he's distrustful of internet security but for you it would be a handy option.


Hold on! Just switch an 'h' for an 'r' and that first 'n' for a 't' and...writing mode!

I love how you think! I wish I'd thought about that awhile ago. I would've finished sooo many projects. ;)

[danceswithgary]

I've done everything online that I can - now it's up to them to push back and ask for what else they need.

I keep hoping I'm going to finish something soon.

*nibbles nails looking at 4/15 deadline*

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

Shouldn't they have some sort of option for people who can't speak?

I keep starting new projects instead of finishing my old ones. *headdesk*

[zephyr-macabee.livejournal.com]

I will keep my fingers and toes crossed that the result is not rejection.

[danceswithgary]

Thanks. My doctor(s) are pretty certain from past experience that it'll be rejected the first time. Standard practice for what I'll ailing from, I'm afraid. Forewarned is forearmed. *nods firmly*

[angelwings9.livejournal.com]

hunny bun, have a massive HUG from me. social security are shite - alas, you have to go through the motions with them. bollocks. have a piece of CHOCOLATE and have do with it!!! lol


*hugs*

xxxx

[angelwings9.livejournal.com]

btw, fingerscrossed, yeah?! xxx :)

[danceswithgary]

Thanks - the chocolate is sometimes a lifesaver. :-D

[angelwings9.livejournal.com]

oh yes, chocolate is KING! lol


xxxx